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I started 'owning' my life back.

Finally said i'm letting go. Started over. Joined a group to meet new friends. Rekindled the lost love I had for my God.

And just as when I thought everything's going to start out right, life gave me a new twist...

I really cant start over.

Because I had to take care of the one I chose to turn my back to.

I knew it was coming. Life has its way of making you look at things differently a few moments before it will finally disappear.

You touched my face, I stirred. For the first time in a long time, you said the words goodbye. You never uttered those words. You always say you'll see soon.

'Twas weird. But I said I wouldn't care. See you if I see you. Or don't.

But life never really took you away completely. He gave you back. Bruised with an arm broken and a trauma that'll never heal.

And now I realized, I can never really turn my back on you.

Even if I want to.

Because no one never really asked what I feel.