For Just a While

God I feel like hell tonight.

Pardon me but let me borrow that line for a while.

I wish there were words to describe what I feel. But there aren't.

I have been really bubbly and giggly all day. The sound of my laughs went beyond the nth level. Idle time was left for joking around. It's nice to forget once in a while.

But those were empty smiles. Yes, I had fun...but I wish I could pry open my heart to know where the void is coming from.

I wish I could have time to just cry myself out, let the pain flow.

But I can't.

And I won't.

Time heals all wounds they say but how long will mine end?

I wish there was an easier way but the coward in me made me stay.

I close my eyes. I wish I'd be given a chance to cry.

Then maybe I'll feel a little better.

Even for just a little while.