Awful.

I wish there are words to exactly describe what I feel right now.

But I guess there aren't.

Beyond sadness, I feel like a worthless prick..

When will my time come? When will life take my side and allow me to feel what I deserve to feel? When will life stop turning the joke on me? When will the pain end and the tears dry?

Will I forever feel this way?

All I ever do is to make people laugh. Make them smile. Have them their time.

But who will ever make me laugh without hesitation and love me without prejudice? When will people stop laughing at me and start treating me right?

God knows I haven't done anything bad against these persons. I may not always be a good girl at all times but I know I am not a bad person.

I am not a bad person.

I am not a bad person.

Please make the pain stop.

Please make the pain stop.

Please.