Empty Smiles, Heavy Tears

Last night, I cried myself to sleep.

Heck, I was sad. Sad as hell.

People go through life interacting with other people. Making connections. Keeping friends. Enjoying moments. Sharing lives.

Making friends is easy. But keeping them is hard. Being one is the hardest part.

I am a friend but I am not 'sharing' kind of friend. I am there through your happy times and you bet I will be there during your hard times. I share my life when I'm happy. But only to a few will I open my life when I'm going through a rough ride.

I smile and laugh and talk out loud...my defenses which are at extreme high when I hide the pain. Laughter is my curtain to hide the worries. No one needs to share the burden that I bear. I feel as though people need not to know the drama.

This is who I am. This is how I am built.

Human as I am, there are a few who I share whatever it is that is behind the curtain.

A few.

Realizing that, I cried myself to sleep.

It's getting lonely up here.